Home alone

I drink liquor like its going out of style. Running up a flight of stairs feels like a mile. I dont give a fuck anyways, a few days from exile. So livin for the moment, everything i do with a smile. 

I try not to fret cause bitches be funny. At our intro she was standoffish. But then she heard i have money. All of a sudden i get attention. Im a grown man i aint no dummy. I want a woman whos about me. Not trying to front and play me like rummy. I met this bitch from the far east. I took her out fed her buddhist’s feast. Im from the streets. Sometimes i get uncomfortable. Act like a geek. If i drink coffee no telling how fast ill speak. But at the end she was leaving from underneath my sheets.  Passed her off to the peeps. We enjoyed her for a few weeks. Then dropped her off like she was at the end of her lease. 

I love women but hate bitches. So at first sight of drama im keeping my distance. Was a couple inches from a sentence. So im happy to be free livin. With people these days i keep my distance. Altough i got love for many shady people got me hesitant. Thats why my house im the only resident. Aint nobody kickin me out and i make the rules. I get all worked up and rowdy after a few moscow mules. Lifes an initiation so you gotta pay your dues. Im a fucked up individual. I out my own insecurities in exchange for i owe yous.

Phat Phucker

Ive turned into a phat fucker. Falling asleep with a jar of smuckers. Snickers, too much peanut butter. Wake up to pancakes smothered in syrup and butter. French press followed by mountain dew. I dont give a fuck whether i die at 50 or 62. Im livin life like i only got A few days to live. French onion and lays. Porter house my last meal on my final day. I aint gotta pray. I talk to God each day anyways. Ive been given everything ive asked for and more. Plenty of whores, like a smorgasbord. I’ve treated girls like shit who i really adored. Cheated on them with their friend cause i was bored and self absorbed. I’ve treated my life like an experiment and self sabotage. At the spearmint rhino with nicki manage. In a manage a trois. This is silly. Ive already spent a thousand and my homeys at 850.